The woman who wanted my death
As promised, I continue my story. It therefore there had been, in one of my previous lives, a jealous, ugly sister who had destroyed slowly. "This woman, you know," told S. "Today is your aunt." Of course, the announcement of this news, anyone could explode, getting angry, yelling: "But how can you afford to say such horrors!" It is without relying on the personality of my aunt, a people who, quite gently, from my birth strove to destroy the small esteem I had with me.
is a woman of exceptional beauty. No man can resist him. But at 55, she is alone. She does not love, it moves from one love to another, destroying everything in its path. Very self-centered, only appearances matter. I have analyzed many relationships we have both on my therapist's couch. Making me out, but does not say clearly that I was riddled with physical defects, it made me realize that I deserved the love of anyone. Too ugly, no man would look at me and when I happened to submit to a friend or boyfriend, misunderstanding is emerging on his face: "how can this be as bad as a girl can attract Koky someone? " I assure you, I got out of his claws, not without pain, not without efforts. My aunt made such havoc today it is almost impossible to see.
It was in this present life, the beauty she envied me so much previously and what did she do? A weapon against others. But I want to finish on a happier note, because it's not in my nature to cry in the cottages. When I was in regression under hypnosis, one of the first images, very elusive, which appeared was that of a young woman-who looked suspiciously like my mother. She was very beautiful, with long black hair loose over her shoulders. She wore a simple dress, linen or wool, pale, bent under her pretty bosom. When S. evoked this unfortunate past life where I had been a woman, her face came back to me and I'm sure it was her, this girl who had known the great misfortune of losing his love. Love, exactly. I tell myself that the dark young man who loved both must exist somewhere and it comforts me terribly. I also wonder if my aunt, with her seduction that nobody can resist, could again break the bonds which it might be jealous? If an embodiment is used to adjust things, maybe then I could in the future flourish in a love that would not have been so bad finish.
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make me feel ugly ... not morally (though:)), but physically, historically. It's something that I treat in psychoanalysis and I did, I think a lot of progress in this field. I saw many in my inner world and the reality of things struck me often. When a man tells me: "You're beautiful," I want to scream, to struggle, to reply: "But you stop fucking my mouth!" Reaction obviously very excessive. Some wait their whole life what kind of phrase that never comes and I feel dirty when I hear them.
What relationship with my survey? Well, I recently discovered that this is a problem whose root is beyond the scope of my current existence. One day, seeing my friend, S., asked me what were my other two names. I told him and he felt inspired: "It's funny, your third name speaks to me." One of my past lives and rising to the surface: "In fact Koky in your incarnations, you were always a man, except once. You were a very beautiful woman. I see you with a porcelain complexion and beautiful hair brown. All eyes turned to you. Very young, you fell in love with a handsome dark man who harbored the same feelings towards you, so you should decide to marry. Everything could have happened perfectly. Did not count on your sister. Ugly, she was secretly very jealous of you, and she was posing for all to see for someone friendly and helpful but she hated you, even worse, she hated you. Above all, she was in love with the same young man that you, and she strove to get rid of, she managed to do. Because of it, the love of your life away from you, you do not marry and you end up depressed, almost mad with grief, alone in a house, to cry until the end of your days. "
Beauty I was dressed destroyed my life; S. explained that if I am again in personified woman for only the second time is that I have to deal with these painful intercourse femininity. It appears that indeed, all previous existences, some are directly related to the present. That seems more fair than S. I am told that the sister was jealous and destructive broke my life, living today in my entourage. It was a shock for me to know his name I will reveal later: like any good storyteller, he must let the pending action. In any case, the truth has allowed me to make a good special in seeking the esteem of myself. I do not really look the same way.
make me feel ugly ... not morally (though:)), but physically, historically. It's something that I treat in psychoanalysis and I did, I think a lot of progress in this field. I saw many in my inner world and the reality of things struck me often. When a man tells me: "You're beautiful," I want to scream, to struggle, to reply: "But you stop fucking my mouth!" Reaction obviously very excessive. Some wait their whole life what kind of phrase that never comes and I feel dirty when I hear them.
What relationship with my survey? Well, I recently discovered that this is a problem whose root is beyond the scope of my current existence. One day, seeing my friend, S., asked me what were my other two names. I told him and he felt inspired: "It's funny, your third name speaks to me." One of my past lives and rising to the surface: "In fact Koky in your incarnations, you were always a man, except once. You were a very beautiful woman. I see you with a porcelain complexion and beautiful hair brown. All eyes turned to you. Very young, you fell in love with a handsome dark man who harbored the same feelings towards you, so you should decide to marry. Everything could have happened perfectly. Did not count on your sister. Ugly, she was secretly very jealous of you, and she was posing for all to see for someone friendly and helpful but she hated you, even worse, she hated you. Above all, she was in love with the same young man that you, and she strove to get rid of, she managed to do. Because of it, the love of your life away from you, you do not marry and you end up depressed, almost mad with grief, alone in a house, to cry until the end of your days. "
Beauty I was dressed destroyed my life; S. explained that if I am again in personified woman for only the second time is that I have to deal with these painful intercourse femininity. It appears that indeed, all previous existences, some are directly related to the present. That seems more fair than S. I am told that the sister was jealous and destructive broke my life, living today in my entourage. It was a shock for me to know his name I will reveal later: like any good storyteller, he must let the pending action. In any case, the truth has allowed me to make a good special in seeking the esteem of myself. I do not really look the same way.
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