Wednesday, October 22, 2008

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The woman who wanted my death

As promised, I continue my story. It therefore there had been, in one of my previous lives, a jealous, ugly sister who had destroyed slowly. "This woman, you know," told S. "Today is your aunt." Of course, the announcement of this news, anyone could explode, getting angry, yelling: "But how can you afford to say such horrors!" It is without relying on the personality of my aunt, a people who, quite gently, from my birth strove to destroy the small esteem I had with me.

is a woman of exceptional beauty. No man can resist him. But at 55, she is alone. She does not love, it moves from one love to another, destroying everything in its path. Very self-centered, only appearances matter. I have analyzed many relationships we have both on my therapist's couch. Making me out, but does not say clearly that I was riddled with physical defects, it made me realize that I deserved the love of anyone. Too ugly, no man would look at me and when I happened to submit to a friend or boyfriend, misunderstanding is emerging on his face: "how can this be as bad as a girl can attract Koky someone? " I assure you, I got out of his claws, not without pain, not without efforts. My aunt made such havoc today it is almost impossible to see.

It was in this present life, the beauty she envied me so much previously and what did she do? A weapon against others. But I want to finish on a happier note, because it's not in my nature to cry in the cottages. When I was in regression under hypnosis, one of the first images, very elusive, which appeared was that of a young woman-who looked suspiciously like my mother. She was very beautiful, with long black hair loose over her shoulders. She wore a simple dress, linen or wool, pale, bent under her pretty bosom. When S. evoked this unfortunate past life where I had been a woman, her face came back to me and I'm sure it was her, this girl who had known the great misfortune of losing his love. Love, exactly. I tell myself that the dark young man who loved both must exist somewhere and it comforts me terribly. I also wonder if my aunt, with her seduction that nobody can resist, could again break the bonds which it might be jealous? If an embodiment is used to adjust things, maybe then I could in the future flourish in a love that would not have been so bad finish.

Friday, October 10, 2008

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Former Life and Psychological Problems (more. ..)

make me feel ugly ... not morally (though:)), but physically, historically. It's something that I treat in psychoanalysis and I did, I think a lot of progress in this field. I saw many in my inner world and the reality of things struck me often. When a man tells me: "You're beautiful," I want to scream, to struggle, to reply: "But you stop fucking my mouth!" Reaction obviously very excessive. Some wait their whole life what kind of phrase that never comes and I feel dirty when I hear them.

What relationship with my survey? Well, I recently discovered that this is a problem whose root is beyond the scope of my current existence. One day, seeing my friend, S., asked me what were my other two names. I told him and he felt inspired: "It's funny, your third name speaks to me." One of my past lives and rising to the surface: "In fact Koky in your incarnations, you were always a man, except once. You were a very beautiful woman. I see you with a porcelain complexion and beautiful hair brown. All eyes turned to you. Very young, you fell in love with a handsome dark man who harbored the same feelings towards you, so you should decide to marry. Everything could have happened perfectly. Did not count on your sister. Ugly, she was secretly very jealous of you, and she was posing for all to see for someone friendly and helpful but she hated you, even worse, she hated you. Above all, she was in love with the same young man that you, and she strove to get rid of, she managed to do. Because of it, the love of your life away from you, you do not marry and you end up depressed, almost mad with grief, alone in a house, to cry until the end of your days. "

Beauty I was dressed destroyed my life; S. explained that if I am again in personified woman for only the second time is that I have to deal with these painful intercourse femininity. It appears that indeed, all previous existences, some are directly related to the present. That seems more fair than S. I am told that the sister was jealous and destructive broke my life, living today in my entourage. It was a shock for me to know his name I will reveal later: like any good storyteller, he must let the pending action. In any case, the truth has allowed me to make a good special in seeking the esteem of myself. I do not really look the same way.

Monday, September 1, 2008

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Reincarnation: where and when? I am back

A very interesting e-mail gives me the opportunity to address an untapped topic: how much time passes between two reincarnations? There would be no standards in this area. Reincarnation can take place both simultaneously at death (or almost) until several years later. I do not pretend to have the truth, all I entrust to you this is just the result of what I have seen from experience.

Take the case of one of my incarnations that have taken place in the late seventeenth century. It my friend told me about that medium. I was a young blond man about 23 years. On the natural quiet, liked to fish in the rivers of England where I lived. He saw me go for long walks, alone in nature and take a portion of the soil samples because, according to S., I got excited about science. My samples were then placed in a special belt, leather, with small bags. However, at some point, I also saw atop a high cliff. I lost my balance, my foot slipped: I tried to grab onto the ground but I fell dead to the bottom. Died so young, my family was tears but I was missing. My body was not found. No burial could not be made. S. I am told that this "adventure" had consequences for the wanderings of my soul for decades before it can again be reincarnated. Under what circumstances could I again? Mystery ... Illustrates the fact that considerable time may elapse between reincarnations. I tried to compile a chronology of my various lives about two centuries from what I know. There were about three per century. Nor should we forget that life in ancient times were fundamentally different from ours which must play in the mainframe reincarnations.

Equally important, even essential: the role of burial. The soul can be at peace, that is to say, continue its path, must follow a ritual of passage. My friend

medium, S. tells me that this past life in England was importing nte and I even occasionally in the future to see the remains of my body rest, according to him, in the same place. It's odd. I can hardly believe it. But you never know, maybe with archeology ... :) Especially since my professional, scientific and Cartesis nne is not very away from this area. Being faced with oneself, is an experience that more disturbing ...

I still have much to say in particular about where the souls are reincarnated but there it is, I'm about to start: then you must wait two weeks. Very good back at all. Luxor, here I am!

Sunday, August 31, 2008

High Heels And Big Boobs



Sincere apologies to those who frequent this blog: I have not posted long messages because there are some nasty obstacles in life that happen when you least expect it. My investigation does not stop just because, well the contrary. I still have plenty to say and you do not cut, I'm telling you! Thank you to those who send me emails: I have not yet found the time to answer them but I promise to do so. Some, indeed could even be downright published: discretion requires, I will not of course ... I'm leaving Tuesday for two weeks in Egypt: and yes, again. My love waits. Maybe this investigation progresses. I hope to post a new tomorrow, otherwise I say to everyone in two weeks.

Saturday, July 12, 2008

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Karmic Astrology

I know nothing about astrology karmic. I only know that it is an immense field, which may in future allow me to continue my investigation judiciously. My work very addictive, I can not yet free enough time to explore this path but instead, the Internet offers me some very interesting foretaste. By tapping on my keyboard, I discovered that my North Node (karmic astrology essential ...) is in balance. Several excellent sites such as Patrick Giani or Samsara, provide some clues to understand its meaning.

North Node balancing mean that this life has the memory of past lives to fight a hostile environment. I would have gone through periods where everyone was a clearly defined role and where there were mostly the spirit of adventure. I said these qualities with panache by paying high price for my freedom. It is possible that I am engaged in a warlike activity. Led by a strong competitive spirit, my life this would retain traces.

Curious because, by reading these few lines came to my mind images seen under hypnosis and had more or less obscured. I was on horseback and galloped in the midst of a village where there was chaos. Small simple houses of the villagers (perhaps with mud walls and straw roofs) were burned. People were screaming. While I was in the middle of this show, I saw a child on the doorstep of one of these huts. He must have been ten years, brown hair very thick, shoulder length and he wore a simple tunic of coarse linen and had the South American type (Mexican?). He looked at me terrified, crying. His eyes were penetrating. I knew I was doing something not very pretty. Was I just a soldier? In any case, the image of this child is extremely high and indeed all those who turn out under hypnosis. I was told that I had in the past in this Life has a debt to settle with a child. Is this it? Possible. According to the hypnotherapist, images that are exposed are still important. They correspond to key moments.

Like any path of life can improve, the North Node balancing m'indiq eu so than now, I have to turn to others, be generous, give, or on the sentimental, it is necessary I absolutely stable. Oddly enough when you know that my job is, in fact, entirely focused on others. Each time I help someone, I get the distinct impression that I'm also good. If I undertook a psychoanalysis this is now several years is that I felt that I absolutely need to transform myself to be less focused on myself. Nothing is left to chance.

Friday, July 4, 2008

Blueprint Of Sunfish Sailboat

Ah! Egypt!

Today I really got the blues for Egypt and my lover is there. How can I be sure that someone loves you? Issue even more difficult when thousands of miles separate you. Some days I say that Egypt is the country I had never set foot: everything would be so much easier ... But at the same time, I'd missed out on many beauties.


















Tuesday, July 1, 2008

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Hypnosis and astral travel

response to Rose who left me a comment again, I do not actually that hypnosis can be compared to astral travel. Indeed, when you decline, throughout the experiment, you continue to have full awareness of your body. It's very special, hard to explain: your mind sailing but it does not dissociate from your premises. One can even say that the whole otherwise it's as if you were entering deep within yourself. Regression under hypnosis is like a trip inside, as if you followed a long black corridor on which are projected images.

However, I think it happens often enough to experience what is called astral travel but not by much spectacular. At the time of sleep, a very specific point between my eyes, inside my head, makes me extremely ill. At this point, I feel, in fact, that my mind is very slight delay with my physique. As soon as I am aware of the pain, I find myself in my body. Again, I remain very cautious maybe all this is pure fantasy ... but still, it happens so regularly that I come to ask me questions ... It seems that in fact this kind of situation occurs more often than we think. Nobody talks much: always this fear of ridicule so characteristic of our society.

Thanks Rose for your questions. It's always a pleasure to share. Is not it also the charm of a blog?

Saturday, June 28, 2008

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physical and psychological sequelae of a particular life

As I promised yesterday, today I tell how I learned why I am claustrophobic. Already, I want to say this, but I'm at a stage limited: I start to cry just like a little girl when I'm in a confined area. Egypt, last May, it was pretty pathetic, I was shared between fear and my desire to enter the wonderful Greek tombs of Alexandria. That was reason enough to take refuge also in protective arms, which was a great excuse. Claustrophobia is not its disadvantages:).

In fact, it's completely by chance that I discovered the origins of this fear. I went to consult a psychic (I go once a year because I'm very, very curious by nature. You had perhaps noticed ...). It was the first time I went home. He engaged the conversation thus: "You know, the Church, at times, absolutely did not tolerate a painter starts to paint scenes of naked, even daring." I was quite destabilized, wondering if he was okay. And he explained: "You know, when I saw you, I thought the Middle Ages. You've been a painter. You've painted things scandalous for its time." This revelation seemed fun. I could not help but laugh especially thinking of the very medium in which I am currently stuck. The light went on: "A friend is very jealous of your talent betrayed you. You have been locked in a cell and hanged after a botched trial". Suddenly, I laughed more. I was shocked for many reasons: already because the Middle Ages is one of my passions, because then, again the theme of betrayal came back on the mat. Obviously, I have not had much luck with my friends during my various reincarnations.

also joined what he said remarks made by my friend, medium, S. While focused to find out what had been my life, he had time to feel a choking sensation. He felt mal. Je lui demandais: "S. qu'est ce que tu as? Tu te sens mal? Tu veux qu'on arrête?". "J'étouffe, on me pend". Il ressentait ce que j'avais pu ressentir alors. Il continua: "on est en train de me prendre, de te prendre. Tout ça, c'est une injustice complète!". Dans quel état j'étais! Une fois revenu à lui, S. me dit: "tu sais, cette réincarnation a eu une incidence particulière sur ta vie. Tu en portes les traces physiques".

J'eus comme une illumination: "j'ai depuis toujours mal derrière le cou. Je dois systématiquement porter un foulard ou une écharpe sinon j'ai des maux de têtes insupportables". Le sentiment d'injustice que j'ai ressenti when I'm dead seems indelible.

Between the dungeon, probable origin of my claustrophobia and the rope around his neck still gives me terrible neck aches, I feel a compelling need to pursue this life there, the one where I was perhaps painter. I have no leads yet. But I do not despair.

Friday, June 27, 2008

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Hypnotherapy: yes but

If you have the opportunity to read the excellent book by Dr. Brian L. Weiss called Our past lives (Editions I have read), you may learn (unless you know it already:)) that our reincarnations have consequences significant on all of us. Psychiatrist, the author is far from being a visionary. Accustomed to plunge his patients in the hypnotic state in order to know the origin of their injuries, one of them, by chance, went back much further, to another life. By word and knowing what had happened, she heals soon. It could well treated by this method many psychological disorders. Some phobias are not explained by patient experience, could be a previous life.

Although I remain convinced that Dr. Brian L. Weiss is right, I still want to say: beware of excesses. Certainly that trauma experienced in the lives of others can impact but, in my humble opinion, they do not explain everything. Why make such speeches, I, who defends the idea of reincarnation? Because a girl (that's what I understand, unless it is older, but I'd be surprised ...) has m send an e-mail me expressed his unease. To read his message, I felt like me again ten years ago ... I want to say what helped me out of my psychological pain, not regression or my research but well and truly a good psy. The quest has could begin only when I finally felt myself. It came as a gift. Besides, I said, distant memories return only when you are completely relaxed and in tune with what we are and aspire to be.

That statement, however it would be totally hypocritical of me to not focus on some discoveries I made in direct connection with my reincarnations such as the causes of my claustrophobia. But I will tell you that later because the job name is ...

The next episode friends. And thank you all for your emails and your kind comments which give the hot heart. This little angel just for you.

Lethal Dose Of Ambien

Interview with S. Garbarg





Sarah Garbarg, Building, 2005, wood, screws, paint, dimensions variable


Leila Simon: Could you tell me about Building (first and second version)?

Sarah Garbarg: This piece is a bit special as it existed in two versions, or rather two distinct forms that are actually quite different from one another. I say "has existed" since currently there is only the second version, the other having been destroyed.

The first version is a series of models of buildings, different colors are stacked on each other.

is a model rather than a genuine piece. She used to determine a number of questions which I then developed into the second version as drawing, color use, deconstruction, the relationship architecture, the archetype.

This first version is what might be called an experiment. It's a piece I built quite intuitively, with hands directly without going through a conceptualization or intellectualization. I am not saying here that a piece is constructed experimentally necessarily a model. Projection , Castle in the Air , Untitled (house flat two exits) are also parts constructed experimentally and I consider accomplished.

I thoroughly manipulated and observed this first version, this model. She never had fixed form. I could use two, three or twenty, I focus on color, line, deconstruction. It's a part that, somehow, I served as a tool.

The second version is a piece that was much more considered and determined in full before construction. This is not the final form, or installed, but who determines its own construction. Building consists of two sets of cleats made of different woods and whose dimensions incorporate the building standards of an empty building. These brackets are then attached together by a bolt as in a building game. There is not a way to organize these cleats together and in that building did not even form an assembly to another.

In the first version, the color was a recovery, whereas here it comes from the material itself. The reference architecture was quite Direct is simple, whereas in the second she appears in the system of measurement, cleats, and therefore the scale of the piece comes to confront the scale of its surroundings.


Sarah Garbarg, + fine + high + low + wide , 2006, mirror polished aluminum, 95.5 x80x49, 5cm


LS: How did you come to realize + fine + high + low + off

SG: In this room, there is a reference to architecture, but it's a different work of Building which is a very close part of the design. What interested me in this work was the report that could maintain the sculpture as a container and not as a form. I chose to perform this piece in an aluminum plate as thin as possible so that the boundary between inside and outside is as small as possible. Polishing material allows me to use a mirror, which both multiplies interior space, and bouncing the surrounding space on the outer walls. A mirror that plays on two different and almost contradictory reports.

This situation-box architecture - sculpture appeals to me very much. It appears for the first time in + fine + high + low + wide . I then resumed in a different way in Untitled (house flat two exits).

LS: You mentioned the option of using architectural standards to achieve Building the second version, could you explain this choice, what path led you there?


SG: The length of cleats ranges from 16 cm to 3 m. 16 cm is the height of a stair-step and 3 m height is often the sub-ceiling in our interiors. I stopped on a number of predetermined standards for the construction of a building, such that they can be found in the "Neufret" for example. And I speak here only of an empty building and no furniture. Indeed, there are fifteen different heights and widths of door such as the use buildings and my goal was not to identify all but the most common choice. Although this system has evolved, there is a common measurement system for each building (no stairs, width and height of door, window, hallway, high ceilings, under window).

This measuring system allowed me to start to obtain the final scale of my room and create a strong tension between it and its environ ment . The relationship with the space in which building is located is through this relationship and measures of scale. Standards that build building are in the building where it is presented

I've been thinking about Mel Bochner to perform this piece.

LS: Did you choose to construct Building from a plan, a scheme that does you were given or is it that every reconstruction will take a different form?

SG: No, indeed Building (2nd version) takes different forms each time it is reassembled.

LS: With this piece we can talk about building game, yet we find this idea with Castle in the Air where for the first time the words appear in your work.
Can we see a connection between these two parts, a construction set?

SG: Yes, indeed we find the idea of play and construction in two parts.

The game induces a notion of beginning, it is meant to be repeated, replayed. And it's an idea that I defend in the sculpture. The idea to present an object that would be there only for itself does not interest me.

Any game also has its own rules, I like to compare the establishment of a system within a room. But a game is also a world in itself, a way to represent it, to replay it, to appropriate it.

construction because that's what I do: I build objects, pieces ... things concrete and material. And what interests me is that state building under construction. It joins the first idea of the game: the beginning. In building, in addition to using a flexible mounting system, the color scheme disturbs the plant and draw a new one. Castle in the words carved into blocks, are not fixed to each other. The stack is very precarious. The video, located cons point where they see me drive, play with these blocks, or bricks, words shown. I pile the words until they collapse and try again. In doing so, a text is built.

LS: Yes, construct, deconstruct, reconstruct, as for a set of Lego pieces or one stacked together.

SG: The state construction-deconstruction-reconstruction is part of my own thinking and my bias for the sculpture, to my own definition of sculpture. I also speak of "de-finish". It is important that the pieces that I build can not be stable, enduring, fixed, they can be deconstructed, there is a certain fragility ... they induce by itself a possibility of reconstruction, an opening.

This idea of construction does not only in my work in reference to building game. But it is perhaps the simplest, most immediate, most direct because hardware.

Generally, my pieces are struggling with the situation they find themselves. I spoke of container for + fine + high + low + wide. But also situations where my pieces may tend to a certain fading, missing person, or some transparency instead.

The use of the words participating also a deconstruction, a de-finish. I think each of us has a relationship, a different distance in contact with an image of a material object or a word. We do not get all three things the same way, it does not necessarily have the same distance either. When an object appears to be a word, I think something is happening at this distance. Maybe somehow we can say that it deconstructs the object. It's pretty complex ...


Sarah Garbarg, Shine-No , 2006 plexiglass mirror, 116 x 21 x 0.3 cm


LS: What led you to use the words?

SG: I always had a strong relationship to writing, writing, and often these are my readings that have inspired or at least influenced my work. I also write and in doing so, I am always particularly attentive to the words I choose. Trying to see where it may be necessary with a minimum of words, which direction, what direction is open, proposed. The dictionary has been my first tool even before introducing words into my sculpture.

I started to use words when I asked myself the question of representation. The choice of representation and, or, abstraction, and the significance of these choices and for me today. The words have become a way of solving the same time to avoid this problem. Choose to ask the question differently. Often I write things to the limit of the visible flirting so much with abstraction. Where I am is in the more figurative pieces that address architecture. Being between the two allows me to have a position I enjoy. I wanted to offer a less abstract, more real. The words also allow me to go somewhere else. They play with the object-sculpture, with what can be projected above, they stumble. Some ambiguity in the spring and that's what I like.

Besides, I just said "I write things" when I should have said "I realize the words" but it's a sense that is difficult to accept. If I say, "I make words on the edge of the visible" it almost does more sense. Yet that is what I do: I realize I'm doing, I materialize, I build ...


Sarah Garbarg, After the quake (blocks piled up like the Streets Along words fallen in disuse, 2006 (Expodium production), cardboard and tape, dimensions variable.


LS: How did you choose these words, these quotes ("conspicuous by its absence", "After the quake
" ...?

SG :. I use expressions or idioms ("conspicuous by its absence"), quotes ("After the quake" or "To start from the beginning"); words I'll isolate (such as "Enter" and "connect-fill"). Each time these words will make sense and question me about my practice and because I'm going, at some point, choose to give them a particular shape, such and such materiality. For example, with Shine-No we are in the problem of being-there of the object and the viewer, their involvement, their justification. "To start from the beginning" is a sentence that accompanied me a lot. It "fence" the book of Guy Debord 'In girum' 1 and introduces the idea of working in a loop of restarting. At the same time, I mix this sentence to a barrier that is the object-obstacle par excellence. "After the quake" may be different. I removed the sentence of the adjectives by Murakami 2 . I pruned all that could voice quality so that the sentence may have the widest sense. "Blocks stacked along the streets as the words fell into disuse." Besides the poetry of the sentence, the reference to "blocks" made me think strongly Deleuze and therefore has led several reading levels.

I mix words within the sentence, just as the master of philosophy in the bourgeois gentleman, and finally I did not care location, this sentence would always say something and Obviously the meaning evolved differently. It was both a concrete landscape but also mentally.

For isolated words, this is the moment of verbs and they thus describe the actions. "Enter" is a sculpture placed on the ground, almost at ground level, which can easily crush, which is so fragile .

LS: At the exhibition "Build'in" in 2007, in Nantes, you presented the cartons in which you had drawn architectures ( Untitled (house flat two exits )) . Why have you chosen to work with cartons?

SG: They are moving boxes, boxes that serve a particular time for transportation. There is the idea of economy of means that emanated from it. But especially the temporary side, in a state of transition, a more precarious time and material. ... And of course the box container.

LS: The board has the idea of container and at the same time you have designed an architecture, so a container, inside this "box". The idea was presented to Russian dolls me, you open a container to find one another and so on. We feel that the architecture shown in this paper is more fragile than the cardboard that contains, protects. We understand differently cardboard and drawing, we turn around to get different points of view ... What was the thrust of this work?

SG: The original idea, before any attempt to realize, of course, was that report box-sculpture-architecture, but also use the drawing to "close" box. The cardboard box is shown open on the floor. Drawing, representation architecture, it is seen as a good point of view (one that allows the reconstruction of the image), comes "close" the box, or at least gives the impression. The drawing closes the form or fill it. The play wavers between an open form, a vacuum, and a closed, full, depending on your point of view.

The fact of representing an architecture and design instead of the train causing contradictions, tensions between drawing and sculpture, fragility and strength, and a scale ratio "returned". To take your idea, Russian dolls which we would know or recognize not nesting order .

LS: Thou hast spoken of your desire to flirt with abstraction, can you explain why this choice when you work with language?

SG: I am primarily sculpture and what interests me is the object. This material presence that can have before their eyes, which occupies one end of our space, which lives with us. If the word is immediately recognizable that does not interest me, because there is more room for the object. But still I repeat the word or phrase contained in the title. I still wish there was a possibility of or read these words may make sense.

The title, referring to the piece, not just an ad. The work on the title interests me, it just ends meet and form the loop. It allows me to emphasize this movement to the object, at work between visible and legible. That is to say that this space is fluctuating through the perception and the distance that can be set or between a physical presence: an object, and a conceptual contribution, meaning: a word. This is important for me that this space that exists between a viewer and a viewed object can vary, it is not fixed, maybe we can not control it and thus allow the work to work.

1 * Guy Debord "In girum imus nocte and consumimur igni." Gallimard 1999 (1 era edition in 1990)

2 * Haruki Murakami " After the quake "(French title =" after the earthquake. " Published in 2002 by Japanese 10/18.Traduit by Corinne Atlan. Japanese Title: 神 の 子供 たちは みな 踊る (Kami no kodomo-tachi wa mina Odoru) The original title means: All God's children can dance, as the third story in the collection which has six). I can not remember the title of the news that the sentence is extracted.

Thursday, June 26, 2008

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Know reincarnations: regression under hypnosis

Following the comment left on this blog by Rose, I have the idea of communicating today procedures to access their past lives. Warning, these techniques I tried are still difficult to implement and should definitely give more or less fruit depending on each. What is true for me, is perhaps not necessarily for others. And then, I remain convinced that there are moments in life that are more conducive than others. There are things you should know and others who must remain in the shadows. In this area, nothing should be forced to wait and timing.

So first method: hypnosis. I have often talked T., a professional who helped me access to my life but I'd rather talk about another person, he, with whom I made a real step backwards. Warning, if you try this technique, it is imperative to hire a professional or a (the): do not trust your unconscious to anyone!

Be aware however, that under hypnosis, you do not risk anything. You are fully conscious and can get yourself out of this state without the help of anyone. Nothing to see So with the movies where a hypnotist malicious pushes the patient to steal or even worse, kill! All this comes under the pure confabulation. So you can contact a specialist in safety. This regression

went to Lyon, my friend medium. M., "the hypnotist" being a friend, I trusted him completely, despite some trepidation ... Fear of knowing ... We're isolated in a room. Mr. encouraged me to lie down. Only a candle lit up the room. He asked me to fix the flame and then, once your eyes closed, to keep that image in mind as long as possible. With its very pleasant voice, he helped me to relax all the muscles in my body. So that my mind is not polluted by the memories of this life, he made me regress pushing me to remind me of simpler times back in time: my first day at university, one where I had my tray , the anniversary of my 16 years, the day my grandfather died when I was 10, my first steps at school at 5 years and so on until my very first memory. You'll laugh, but I was then dusting the buttocks with my mom ...

Once the thread of my life has risen, there was a void. Body under hypnosis is very relaxed but the mind is in total enlightenment. When Mr. said: "Now you're in the womb," I started having the feeling of being at the movies, sitting in the dark. I saw images that were projected. I felt that it was not my brain that produced them but rather as an external projector. That's what gave me the strong impression that these images correspond to reality, to something real and not seen stuff on TV, a few reminiscences of movies or books.

I found myself in my mother's womb, while a fetus curled up. Then total darkness. Appear before the first images. They come at you like a movie, all mixed. These are first flashes nonsensical, faces, situations. Then, these images are more accurate. Then they tell a story.

Tuesday, June 24, 2008

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Reincarnation recent (cont'd)

What was not shocked when I discovered that this famous MA, I'm supposed to have been, has not only been a journalist for major U.S. magazines of the early twentieth century but also one of screenwriters and playwrights most famous of his time. His films were interpreted by actors and actresses amazing that I dare not even mention here.

course, keep a cool head. This immoderate taste for fashion of the early twentieth century and the city of New York can not be taken as evidence in itself. Like my need to write can not be a reminiscence of the past so close ... A. died in 1954, year of birth of my mother. Definitely a coincidence ...

During a hypnosis session with T. I saw the bay of New York all lit up. Is it because at the television this kind of view is extremely common? My brain may have simply memorized an image that has passed at this time. Yes, but I also saw a house full height, with a staircase in front, as exists in the United States. It was snowing and three children were playing with a sled down the slope opposite. Authentic souvenirs or just seen film clips ages ago? Hard to say, it is true that one would have believed in "Citizen Kane" or "Life is Beautiful" by Frank Capra. Different impression, however much clearer and does not relate, it seems, nothing in particular: Still under hypnosis, I see a big boat, yacht type, all lit up at night. An orchestra played. Men in tuxedos drinking champagne. Ladies in long dresses are in their arms. We are in the 30s (always the bay of New York?). Something is wrong: the prohibition prohibits any alcohol consumption. I would like to know more but the images evaporate. Lying on the couch T., I come back to me too fast for my taste. These feelings are very strong burned into my being, as if they were part of me but they escape me at the same time, every time I try to restrain them.

Monday, June 23, 2008

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Mako Ishizuka CV

Born in 1974 Kobe, Japan
Lives and works in Stockholm


Training

2003-2005 Malmö Art Academy, Malmö (S) [MFA]
2002 Goldsmiths' College, London (UK ) [visiting program]
2000-2003 Gerrit Rietveld Academy , Amsterdam (NL) [BFA]
1993-1997 Kobe College, Kobe (JPN) [BA in Literature]


man shows

2006 Galleri Ping Pong, Malmö (S)
Mejan Galleri, Stockholm (S)
2005 Galleri Peep, Malmö (S)
Pictura / Scania Art Museum, Lund (S) [part of the Malmö-Lund Photo Biennale 2005]
2004 Expositieruimte Moira, Utrecht (NL)
2002 Cholmley Gardens, London (UK)
2001 Galerie Caesuur, Middelburg (NL)
NICC Viewpoint, Bruges (B), Knokke-Heist (B), Middelburg (NL)


Expositions Collective (selection)

2007 Non-Place, Art Restricted Zone, Bruges (B)
Ghost Trax, PAD, Verona (IT)
Reflections of the rooms, gallery Andréhn-Schiptjenko, Stockholm (S)
Works of scholarship applicant, the Royal Academy of Fine Arts, Stockholm (S)
Spring Salon, Liljevalch, Stockholm (S)
2005 Östersund Art Video Festival , Jämtland County Museum, Östersund (S)
Skåne Video Film Festival, Red Mill, Helsingborg (S)
There ARE no more Allan Kaprow in the art world, Shiloh, New York (U.S.) [project with Stephan Pasche et al. ]
2004 Beep, Galleri Peep, Malmo (S)
Skånes Video Festival, Roda Kvarn, Helsingborg (S)
GallerinattsNatten, Cirkulationscentralen, Malmö (S)
2003 Handla, Konsthögskolan i Malmö (S) [project with Stephan Pascher et al]
Encounters, Artwalk, Amsterdam (NL)
Guidance Last Edition, the Oude Kerk, Amsterdam (NL)
2002 Eve, Venus, Madonna Images of Femininity, For But Kloster, Maasmechelen (B)
Is not ash, Cady's Alley, Washington DC (U.S.)
2001 The Evening de Langste Nacht, SJU, Utrecht (NL)
Kunstcircuit De Slang, Hotel Navarra, Bruges (B)


Prix

2007 Grant for Young Promising Artist’s Practice Abroad, Agency for Cultural Affairs (JPN)
Cultural Stipend, Malmö City (S)
2006 Grant for Artist’s Practice, Nomura Cultural Foundation (JPN)
Monumental Art Project Programme, Kungl. Konsthögskolan, Stockholm (S)
2005 Assistant Grant, Konstnärsnämnden (S) [assistant to Matts Leiderstam]
Berlin Studio Grant, Malmö Art Academy (S)
2004 Grant for Artist's Practice Abroad, Pola Art Foundation (JPN)
Berlin Studio Grant, Malmö Art Academy (S)
Project Grant, Malmö Art Academy ( S)


Bibliographies

Anders Olofsson, "Room by room," Art, May 2007, Sweden
Lars-Erik Hjertström Lappalainen, "Memories of a pair of glasses," Art, December 2006, Sweden
Jelena Zetterström, "My stories" Sydsvenskan, December 12, 2006, Malmö
Stephen Paschen, 'shopping: Refiguring Private and Public Space” MERGE, #13, 2004, Stockholm/London/NY

Archives
National Public Art Council, Stockholm (S)
Signal, Malmö (S)

Stomach Flu In Phoenix, Az

Interview with B. Derel










Paint object (refrigerator), 2005, 90x60x70cm, fridge, wood acrylic painting.


Leila Simon: What is the origin of your "Paintings-Objects?

Bertrand Derel: The origin of my "Paintings-Objects" is fairly simple. When I started at the School of Fine Arts, I worked mainly painting ; Was an abstract painting made of drippings, burrs. This fascination has informed gradually disintegrated because this practice was focused on an aesthetic and not a real question. Depletion of this painting, probably owing to the ease of movement that produced it has ended up turning in circles to no longer produce anything interesting. So he quickly took me to rewrite in my practice and its databases to extract a real questioning. And thus gradually some elements of my paintings began to become more important. The relationship between painting and what it represents as an object began to rise in my mind what I liked in the paint, it was not so much what I was painting but the notion of painting as object and the relationship that occurs between the idea of representation and it can convey the perception of its components (that is to say how the chassis, binders, pigments, canvas can be synonymous or echo of a thought then that the use of abstraction levels take several readings and sensibilities.)

From there, I divided my work into two lanes. I started from one side to treat the painting, with the desire to represent my understanding of what surrounds me and not imagined, and therefore also show how the painting was influenced by all things around him who did. So this painting became for me a kind of mirror of reality or not converging shapes, colors, etc.. but the tensions and energies involved between the objects around me and myself. I had to come up with something that makes this sensation and the idea of object is taken head on in the mental space of painting. It and this series on Paints items arrived. I wanted to highlight the relationship between painting, the subject and one that is in the middle, the mental and physical that could be the object became more complex and reflexive. The work became the subject and object, the work.

For that, I had no aesthetic value of real objects but rather objects imbued with a utilitarian value. So I chose objects almost necessary in the normal operation of a home such as a Western way fridge, heater etc..

From there, I started to create blocks that were supposed to be frames from and which repeated the exact same dimensions as the subject matter. The block and the object being faced opposite one another to emphasize that the frame should be the object and vice versa. Thus, a sort of game is created between the two that would manifest the object-side of the painting.

and yet on the other hand, my work resulted in a completely opposite result and recessed flat with the wall


LS: Is that Intara, Duchamp, your "Paintings-Objects" are a challenge to the
painting?

BD: It does not seem to me that this is frankly a challenge because it was finally getting back to painting itself. I had a painting that was beyond me and then the only thing I was to master the construction of the chassis, struts, etc.. I felt I had no control over the paint that I deposited on the canvas. What makes at one point I wanted to reclaim the painting through the object. For me, this work became a kind of trompe-l'oeil mental, between the paint on one side, the object of another. At first I really wanted to make a pictorial work, the order of the image, but this painting and this object are united into a whole, which became sculptural, so I did not like this idea in mind. Then, these "Paintings-Objects", which initially were placed on the ground, were gradually handed over to the wall. In the hanging wall, I feel like appropriating more

the object as such in the field of painting. Finally this verticality was a fairly simple answer. The object + block marry better in this situation although for me the field of painting is not restricted only to the wall.


LS: Exactly you speak of painting, while in the traditional sense, it is absent in this series "Re-Paint?

BD: As I mentioned earlier, my work has deviated in two ways, at first I

realized paintings on chassis and then I come to this series.

The first is the fact of having set aside the subject-painting, that is to say the frame, the canvas to achieve the murals, they were species large geometric shapes

completely flat, lifeless totally disembodied. And beside that, I do not know why I wanted to create a work that would allow me to create something more in line with the body, taking in the real common things to the body and facilitates the existence such as a radiator by example and give something totally mental, pictorial. I came to wonder what was the best way for me to be a pictorial object was to represent it in 3D. Because I know because I am blind plan was the best way for me to represent the object. My objects are born from that moment. It was important for me whether it's paintings, because they were born under the name of painting, I've thought of as a painting and not as a sculpture. To me, they were first pictorial images. So what about the painting in the traditional sense of the word? No I do not paint in this direction but it was she who led me to have this type of practice and also to open myself to new practices which I did not rub me.









Pergolat , 2007, 300x850 cm, wood, acrylic paint.


LS: What exactly is the origin of your murals?

BD: I realized the wall to extract myself completely, remove my hand. At first it was quite formal and quite physical. I needed to represent large areas of color that put me uncomfortable in the space in which I showed. It was pretty important for me they are very large and when the same time, they generate space when everything is flat. It was a kind of counterpart to 3D painting-objects; An almost binary response to the fact that these objects were seen by many as sculpture. I wanted a way to make 3D with 2D.

I used it for building technology. I felt that my plane image must have depth. And besides now that the murals are accompanied by a relief that alters the architecture of the place where they are made precisely to emphasize the idea that the plan is not necessarily plan and that the painting itself "classic" as a body . Although frontal plane, they are not transversely, and when you look at the course of their long this relief emphasizes that a painting can be browsed in a space that is mental or not.









Green- Orange Fluo , 2004, 400x140 cm, fluorescent tube, wood, acrylic paint


LS: Why are you included in your neon wall?

BD: It was very beginning, I did not know exactly where to place myself, this addition is really the bridge between these two works (paintings, murals and objects). The murals that use neon lie between these two works, it can be a sprite painting but also murals. It is the object (neon) and painting. The lamps are also involved to give also this notion of trompe l'oeil which I referred earlier to the "Paintings-Objects." But I was not completely satisfied, I wanted to create a patch of light, short things were not very clear on this point, so that gradually the lights disappeared and the goods become blocks, ground objects and paintings are emptied of purpose, only to be murals. There was also this idea after all trivial that the painting was also made of light. It was a kind of manifestation of this preconception.


LS: In a wall you insert a frame, then it disappears in the following. Is what you had trouble separating worry in you'd need?

BD: Yes indeed, it was the very beginning was the second, it was like a kind of booster shots. In fact even now that my relationship with the chassis is ambivalent; my practice has spread yet I continue to buy and treasure. Maybe it's a kind of fetish ...


LS: When you realize Pergola in 2007, do you feel close to the work of Felice Varini or Georges Rousse?

BD: Not really. Their work seeks to show, to impose a certain way point of view, the arrhythmia can be created when the view is not good in their works, but if one wants to see their pieces in their entirety, should one place. In my case, I prefer to believe that there is no single viewpoint. Approaching a piece through the lens of a single viewpoint is interesting but simplistic and I think this can lead to some abuses that I can not afford.


LS: Te would call you "an architect of an interior space" when you realize Pergola (Creation a universe, a new space for painting)?

BD: Not really what interested me was to create a kind of disorder in the perception of space, not necessarily to create a universe. I wanted to use this architecture as a medium for my paintings to highlight the fact that it (the architecture) can be seen as anything other than architecture. For me, the reality of architecture is that it is the support that we live, it is our way of life and relieves us of external constraints. In fact, it becomes for me the equivalent of a white sheet on which creates new spaces. A drawing can enlarge the physical format of a film by the way we plan the features in another place. Obviously, we are talking thus universe but they are created by painting the beholder. As I said, I do not wish to establish a point of view, because I think everything has to see any point of view and all eyes.

This reminds me of a play I made a sculpture that is an angle, two triangles placed in a corner, coated and painted the same color as the wall, so it's a piece we hardly notice, unless we look at ground level. Something just so disturbing reading space, it seems to be constitutive of architecture yet it is an added element that distorts the architecture and allows a new relationship to it. Similarly, the wall with fluorescent (I think "green-fluorescent-gold" in particular) shifts the limits of space. The frame is covered in the 45 ° angle, the light illuminating the opposite side of the frame draws a shadow on the wall, this gives the impression that the location of the corner of the room is not behind the frame but on its edge. There has something like-it disturbs the reading of space, most of the time, my paintings are related to the idea, create something not normal, a reading space that challenges the limits troubled place, shifts the angle and shoot the walls ...













X Portrait, 2008, 120x50x60cm, wood, plaster.


LS: And as regards the portraits ...

BD: My series of portraits came shortly after the "Paintings-Objects." In fact my "Paintings-Objects" led me to create frames of increasingly sophisticated and they have become almost against my sculptures. That's why my "Paintings-Objects" are returned to the wall and I have a carving next to it now. What is rather funny is that at that time I had a big problem with my murals asked me a lot of problems. My paintings were totally disembodied, they were cold, I wanted to start but I do found myself more in it. I would have been able to achieve these paintings by anyone and this idea does not appeal to me. The idea of the hand, his gesture was absent. However, the idea of embodying a part or rather there to trace my hand over stimulated.

I worked with the cons-plated to make my "Paintings-Listed" and compulsively I had the need or desire to press against the plywood block to give me new material. Hoping thereby to get something new which could lead to new tracks. Gradually, I began to identify these blocks as to compensate for the lack of my carnal wall without necessarily doing anything; stratification PC, the living side of the wood, almost skin color of the wood, just me back in those blocks to slices of epidermis. Moreover, this idea of me tarrodait portrait, the portrait treat for me was probably inevitable. I felt that I had to transpose my line of work painting-objects of life. Ensure that this relationship that I was dealing between objects and painting can be transposed with the people and painting. Therefore, I established a rule: The board of CP could be somebody, so they should have the same width and height. This mother board was then divided into a rectangle whose dimensions depended on the face of the person concerned. Once I got this series of small rectangles, I have glued and pressed together. I sanded all the edges and I had a plaster on the front of the block on the wall. The block in question was hooked up to the face of the person I thought. This coating, the same color as the wall melted into the wall and vice versa. The depth of this object is seen depending on where one is placed. The impression that emerged was quite indefinable, because blocks were made up of flat faces but none are parallel. They were not paved rights or cubes ... Initially I called them "indefinable portraits" because I wanted to indicate that the frontal portrait (shown in surface coating) suggested also by the side of the massive block of CP all the complexity that exists between artist and his model that this questioning is not nerdy at the moment.


LS: Where your choice for a coating of the same color as the wall where the portrait will

hooked.

BD: A person is imperceptible and perceptible, only one has an idea


LS: How did you choose the volumes, the shape of these portraits ?

BD: As a totally subjective, is the idea that I am that person. The shape is gradually without being subject to a system. It is empirically and depends on factors that I do not necessarily control, the way which the block is pressed, the capabilities of cutting tools and grinding but I stop to work when it seems that the form is consistent with the person I think.


LS: Did you have any projects currently?

BD: Yes, perhaps to make a series of portraits, a group portrait of the city. I do not know yet what form it will take, perhaps a kind of micro-architecture. I do not know too well what it's going to give, but mostly I want to ensure that this rule database is not a prison.

There also paints objects that evolve quickly right now because of this new vertical but also by the choice of objects that becomes clearer gradually. The murals and also new series of sculptures stemming portraits. Finally all that will be visible very soon.